The Story teller …………………………..
Story of my experiences………….
It was a sunny morning
The garden was full of screams and shouts of children ecstatic and enjoying .
The festival was Holi
I was desolate , and sad because I had no friends
No one to play with . I heard someone call out my name . I looked up. I was blinded by the shining crown of gold that He was wearing . He had an Angelic white robe around him and he was smiling at me.
“You are sad “ . I did not know whether it was a question or statement . He smiled again .
“ Yes ” , I admitted . “ is it because no one is playing Holi with you ? “
“ Yes ” , I admitted again. He smiled again . “Alright I’ll play with you , not only today but everyday .”
And so it started . Day after day … week after week , he would come every day 7.00-8.00 AM and add a new colour to my life .
There was so much joy , that it was a long time before I realized that I have not even gone out .
I opened the window of my room . My room was filled with ecstatic and joyous screams of children playing Holi in the garden . I felt someone nudge me . I looked up . He was there with that enchanting smile , “ go out and Play Holi“ He said. I did.
The moment I came out , the children rushed to me . I held out my arms and as I felt children coming to me I felt overwhelmed with emotions . I could feel love and affection overflowing all around . suddenly , out of corner of my eyes , I could see a child desolate and sad. Perhaps , because he had no friends. No one to play with . I heard someone call out my name . I looked up . He was smiling again . “ go to him “ , He commanded . I went to the child .
“You are sad “ . I did not know whether it was a question or statement . He smiled ruefully . “ Yes ” , I asked . “ is it because no one is playing Holi with you ? ““ Yes ” ,he admitted rather sadly.
“Alright I’ll play with you , not only today but everyday .” I was surprised , because I could hear myself telling him . As I picked up the child , and brought him inside , I felt being overwhelmed with joy and love .As I passed a mirror , I was blinded by the shining Golden crown on my head , and I noticed the white Angelic white robe that I was wearing . I was surprised. I noticed Him waving at me , smiling .“Go ahead !” I could hear him “ make the child angelic and divine like yourself . Add a new colour to his life everyday”. “but where is the colour ? ”I asked .
“It is in your hands “
I looked down and found I was holding ‘Murali’* in my hand .
I noticed the child was smiling at me……………………..
I looked up , my vision reaching out beyond the stars , perhaps beyond the cosmos resting on a point of bright illuminated light …
I could see the Father smile at me ……………rather fondly…..
Note :” Murali ” is supposed to be God’s Own words as per the Brahmakumaris.
II
IT WAS YESTERDAY …………………………………………
It was but yesterday , that we were in the heavens
We had the joy in our hearts , divinity in our souls . we could smile with the eyes and communicate in silence .
We would walk down the stream and float in the music of flowing water . we would lose our self to the soulful music of the breeze , and wander in the solitude of jungles.
It was but yesterday, that we lost our way , and have since been wandering around aimlessly. We have the maps but we lack directions . We have the speech , but we find hard to communicate . We find poetry in words but no love in our hearts . We have company but no friends . We have books and scriptures but no knowledge . some have knowledge , but no understanding .
We have riches but no happiness..
Today , we have a choice. Do we want to change ourselves or others . Do we want food for taste , or do we yearn for food for soul. Do we want to live till death or live in fear of death till we die . do we want to see what we love to see or love whatever we see? Do we greed for more or love to give up . Do I stab my friend in his back , or nurse the wounds of my enemy , or do I have any enemy in the first place.
Today we have God himself talking to us .
Today , we have a choice. Do we listen to him or to the cacophony around us . do we hear the songs of our soul , in the echo of His words or try to translate his words into different religions and attribute different meanings.
Today , you have to exercise your choice .
It would be but tomorrow , that our today would be but a yesterday , but have we ensured that we would be in heavens ?
Today , you would be walking with your father , you nave a choice of listening to him and get his inheritance , or asking him for petty favours .
It was but yesterday that we were in heavens , enjoying his inheritance , but it was due to the choice we made the day before.
III
The Teacher ..and the Pupil…
I was lost in the carnival . The crowd was pushing and jostling me. In the chaos , I lost my grip on my father’s hands .I knew he would come looking for me . He loved me so much .But I was desperate .
I saw the Teacher smile at me .
She asked me : Do you know your father’s name ?
I was so confused , I could not answer . She asked me to think and comprehend what he looked like .
I tried but failed . All I could say “ A thought is too small a measure to comprehend him . But I can feel him with me. “
She smiled again . “ what is better ? would you like to imagine him or feel him ?
I had my answer.
I could feel His smile bestow bliss on me. He had found me at last.
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The Teacher was reading out His (Father’s) words .
“But Teacher , As I hear these words , I could feel ages and worlds pass me by .
Suddenly , there was no crowd . I was humbled into a small point of light , sharing the large universe with multitudes of similar points of light , smiling at each other , at peace with our self , with each other , and with the whole universe.
All fellow passenger on cosmic ride.
All charged up by an illuminant point of light beyond cosmos.”
She smiled benevolently . I wondered if she would ever run out of patience .
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The Teacher was talking about silence .
“ but Teacher , when I am silent , I am actually speaking to him , and as He speaks ,
in my heart silences grow.
My body feels energized ,
my mind feels celestial glow.”
She was silent.
I was apprehensive . “will she tell Father , that I am a mischievous disturbing student “
She kind of read my thoughts . So did HE , I presume . I could see the Teacher smile again , and could hear Father tell me “ may be naughty , maybe disturbing , but she accepts you as student , and that is what matters . Listen to her as she reads out my words and enjoy the carnival .”
My reverie was broken . suddenly I was no more scared of crowd , or of getting lost . the Teacher had helped me establish my grip on my fathers hand , firm in my conviction I cannot get lost , and as long as HE is holding my hand ,I cannot do any wrong.
Thank You Teacher.
IV
THE WEEK-END…….GET AWAY
I was tired.
The Business review meeting was on .
The anxious and worried faces of speakers worried me , as they rattled out figures and statistics about the problems and challenges faced by them .
The un availed calls . The Physician on duty not turning up on time. Complaints about my Physician found asleep on duty , not taking calls. The Trainees in my training centre absconding . Meeting the target of training 900 people in 5 months …because the COO has assured the CM that he will get it done…. HR not able to get required number of trainees……..
I could also realize , the expectations they had from me …how could I possibly turn the situation around to a more favourable result…..
I realized , enough is enough . I felt weak , tense and unsure . Ifelt , it is high time I took a break. Thought I will talk to my father about a weekend getaway.
“ Yes , You are disturbed , I can see that . what do you propose to do about it.” He asked me . his tone as reassuring , as composed as ever.
“ I guess , I require a break . maybe I’ll go out on a weekend .”
“Why that long , why not now? “ He asked me . I could feel the warmth and sunshine of his smile permeate my soul.
I was relaxed. I had my doubts though. “ But it is not so simple. I have to take leave , arrange for flight and Hotel Bookings. Guess I’ll have to arrange for Videocam , i-pod . some CDs , some books .”
I could feel his smile kindle kind of joy within me.
“Come with me …..” , it was more of a suggestion than a command .
I followed him . Feeling light as I crossed the limits of the world , feeling lighter as I crossed the space and beyond the realms of space , entered a space beyond known dimensions of space , as we understand them through science. I could feel myself covered with radiance never experienced before. As I looked around , I could notice small points of lights all around , an entire cosmos of lights and a brilliant point of light More radiant than anything I could ever imagine.
I could just look on and on. I was wonderstruck and dumbfounded. And then it struck me …..the silence . The silence was different from the silences I had ever experienced or imagined .
The silence was not a muted silence.
The silence was not the silence experienced by deaf . It was full of energy . As I looked on at the source of brightest energy , the brightest point of light and shifted my gaze to other points of lights , I could feel a subtle motion , which gradually and progressively found a rhythm , and I could feel a soulful music being generated through the silence. The music that no i-pod can podcast , the one that I have never heard . The music reached a crescendo and I could feel the lights swaying to the rhythm …..a dance unfathomable to the mortal eyes and mind . I could feel the soulful music and dance through my existence , I could feel myself becoming absolutely light and now I could understand the concept of being light as the extreme of becoming lighter and lighter till one becomes a point of light .
I could even perceive the points of lights communicating to each other and to even the source of light , totally in silence through the music . As I felt the communications within myself , I felt absolutely full of joy , happiness , peace and tranquility.
My joy registered on my face as a smile. I was back in the meeting .
Some one asked me “ you can still smile when you have so many challenges.”
“Challenges were there . now I ‘ll give you solutions.” I smiled back at him.
I started rattling out the instructions , that became more explicit as I progressed. At the end of my deliberations , every one could see the way forward .
I was left wondering if these solutions were mine or dictated by the ethereal silence that I experienced
I could see everyone relaxed and smiling at the meeting.
As I closed the meeting, I thought I would thank my Father .
“ So , how was your weekend …” He asked .
“ The weakness has ended , I feel myself emerging more stronger , composed and happy . I feel the weakness end , and myself strengthened .
Thank you father .”
V
FLYING THROUGH THE CLOUDS
“Go and fly through the clouds “
HE (Father) said
I laughed . HE must have gone crazy .I cursed myself for sounding blasphemous .” how can I fly. Ridiculous .”
HE gauged my thoughts .
“You don’t believe that you can “
I nodded . “ that’s it . As long as you believe you can not , you can never fly. “
“Now how do you travel from new York to new Delhi .” He shot the next question to me.
“By air India flight ,of course “
“And how does aircraft fly ? “
“Obviously , it has been programmed that way . Scientists have invented this machine using their mind “
“ that is exactly what I want you to realize . Before inventing , the Scientist must have created the thought in his mind. He must have believed that the thought would work . Only then he would have set out to design the machine and achieved success…………and today you are able to fly , only because someone created the thought , and believed in himself , went about systematically to work out the requirement for making it possible . He could not only fly himself , he could make sure everyone can fly.”
“so ,Remember that the first step of achieving success or achieving anything is creating a thought positively . next believe in it . then think rationally what are the requirements for making it possible , the activities that would go into it to make it possible .The challenges I am likely to face during this course , and how can I overcome them. Finally , execute your plans diligently without losing focus , and nothing can come in your way.”
“Is it so difficult ? do you still feel you cannot fly . “
I was humbled . I had the key to success . It is so easy . All it requires is creating a thought and drive it by positive energy and intellect .
I looked up to thank the supreme father for making it so simple . I could only see my vision going beyond the cosmos , and as I bowed in reverence , I could feel the warmth of his smile and blessings touch me. As if telling me “ “Yes , whatever you have learnt , now bow more in humility , and internalize it to programme your soul ……………………………..”
