The Conversations ….with FATHER…..With Self…. September 26, 2009

I

WALKING WITH FATHER ……………………….

The night is about to end , and I can hear the footsteps of the dawn ……..
The darkness is still there , but I can see you
Because you are a fountain of light and energy .
you talk to me , You teach me too , and when I get tired and inattentive , you place your hand on my forehead and put me to sleep .
Every morning , I wake up in a new home , open my eyes in a new family
Some people also refer to this as phenomenon of births and rebirths …………………………
But every morning
You wake me up
Teach me , converse with me , and also tell me how much of it I have forgotten .
I am forgetful , and you are for giving. I am all for getting more and more , and you are all for giving up more and more .
You tell me to give up the vices , I , in my ignorance give up on your advices …..
But you still love me
I , on my part love you too……
I search for you all around …from one temple to another , from one religion to another , from one belief set to another , and from one guru to another……….
But you search me out … without even asking whether I believe in you or not
Perhaps because you believe in me , believe that I am a pure divine soul .
But Your search does not end with me , you have to search out more of children like me who have lost the way .
But my search ends with you , and so does my night of ignorance.
I shall get up tomorrow morning once again and join you on your journey
And may the footsteps of dawn that the next child hears , be echoes of mine , on this journey with you……………

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II

THE MAGIC OF SILENCE …………………….

It is in your silences that you communicate best .You speak to yourself .

When you do that you have achieved self realization .

The silence is not being dumb….

Not being deaf either

You are hearing

You are listening to what Father has to tell you .

You are listening  to whatever the environment is trying to message you …………………..

“…It is not what I tell you everyday …that you have to note

..I am getting new children every day and I also know that I have to talk to them in the language They understand  …..

The language ,they want to hear …..

I am aware you do not need any incentives , any temptation of Kingdom …..

All you require to know and realize is that you have to acquire the Godly virtues that  has been your original self….

and implement them in day to day life …..

and rest is bound to follow……….

This is the essence and sum total of what you shall be learning every day……  ”

III

MAGIC OF YOUR WORDS

…………………………

The moment of silence

With you

Is the silence of thoughts

Punctuated by the magic of your words

That form the lyrics

Of the soulful songs …….

I have often heard

During my journeys

Through births and rebirths ………

The brush of your memories

Has often touched the canvas of  my soul

Only to

Remind me

Of the way you touch me during my silences

And

Make my very existence

A vast moment of silence

With you

As

Silence of my thoughts…….

Punctuated by magic of your words………………

IV

Sometimes …………… with the father……………………

Sometimes

I have looked at clouds

And felt the raindrops fall …..

Sometimes …

While walking alone

I have heard

His silent footfalls ………

Sometimes……..

I have been with the father

And have been drenched

By the drops of joy

As they incessantly fall………………………

V

11 july 09 : THIS IS THE CHANGE :

What is this which we are very fond of seeing in others ? what is that which stimulates our thoughts no end when we think of others . is it that we think of what he has – he has so much of money ! he has such a palatial house , not only this , he has a large number of houses and I presume must be having a number of plots too! He has a sedan , every two years or every year he is buying a new car . Add to this , the undercurrent of envy that we feel every time we have such thoughts. Where does it leads us to ? What do we do next ? we try to find his faults …..and it leads to …..

Unhappiness

Discontent

Avarice

Greed

Corruption

Fractured relationships

But is this what we want ? if you ask  people what do they want  the answers would be

happiness

contentment

joy

a house full of love

unconditional  and unconditioned relationships.

What does it take to make the changeover ? Just a thought . What prevents you from taking a pause and give a thought . How can you  change .

He has given you all the happiness when you are born . as a child you have enjoyed playing with a cap of broken bottle, more than you enjoy a game of bridge today. The joy you felt when you could paddle your bike few yards , without being supported by your parents or your brother is far more than which you had when you  sit in a  chauffeur driven sedan on your way to corporate office weighed down by uncertainty of market , recession , the board meetings and the fact that your wife was in no mood to speak to you in the morning.

Try looking at a child  , and feel the innocence of a flower just bloomed

Feel the stirrings as placid  water in pond moves in concentric circles by a pebble thrown into it , and as you grow up look into the depths of Sea , feel the surge of power  as it emerges to splash out on the beach  , but do you think , you can disturb the sea by throwing a pebble into it .

Realise the depths of your soul , feel the immense power within you surging as waves   , let it splash out peacefully , but never allow pebbles of situation disturb your stability and equanimity  .

VI

IS IT THE LIGHT …………………….

Is it  the light….

That makes us see…..

Or

Is it the eyes  that see……..

What I see….

Would a tree be tree

If , I did not know what is a tree…

Is it my eyes

Or my mind

That makes me see…….

Is it the world

That I hold in my hand …….

Or the visions of heaven ,I behold

Through words of thee……………

VII

I need ……………………………..

For hearing

I need my ears …..

For Seeing …..

My eyes

I laugh out my joys

My sorrows end up as sighs ….

I need

To be in silence to listen to

What Father has to say ….

And more silence

To listen to the words he perhaps did not say

I need

To be with Him

And experience the visions

Not eyes to see and

Ears to hear

I need

The love in my heart

Stability in my mind

Energy in my soul

To understand

joy and sorrow

Are not reflections of

Laughs and tears…………………………

VIII

Distance  Education……………..

The sky is quiet, because it hold too much within itself .

The earth is humble enough to be trodden upon by millions and millions of people , but it feeds the same people anyway..We villainise the clouds, call them black , and they in turn quench the thirst of earth and us .

And What do we Do ?We do not hold much knowledge and keep blabbering at every opportunity .We bite the hand that feeds us . We exploit the Sun , the sky and the Earth .we do not think twice before giving in to vices of lust , anger ,greed , intoxication , and biggest of all Ego.

We think no end of our self ..some of us even call ourselves GOD . . but do we call ourself black ?When we fall , we blame others , sometimes God too .

When we require something badly we even offer Him bribe.Can you offer a glass of water to Sea ? I will be called an idiot if I suggest it also .

But we often make conditional offers to God., who we our self say ,is the source of everything . If I pass my Exam , I’ll offer one Kg Laddoo . If I could marry this girl , I will offer Rs 501/ , and Please God do not even bother to ask her whether she wants to marry me or not .

Jesus said , Forgive them Lord , for they do not know what they are doing .In my ignorance , I have been doing all of this and I seek Your forgiveness , Father .

But today , I know . I have learnt to be quiet like Sun , Humble like Earth , and am on my journey to quench the thirst of people who do not have this knowledge .But I am not the one to quench anyone’s thirst .

It is you who has to hold my hand , as I touch those who are thirsty of knowledge .

The sky may be quiet , You are not ,because in your silences ,I have often heard not only what you have said , but also a lot of which you left unsaid.

And when I see the sky …I sometimes look beyond … far away , and I can feel your words touching me through the quiet sky

……Distance Education ….some of my friends would say !

IX

The Train Reservations :

I do not believe in births and rebirths.

” on One hand , you say that the soul cannot be destroyed , would not die , and yet there is increase in population. How do you explain it ? “

The Father responded with his smile .

“Have you heard of Rajdhani express? “

“Yes”

‘ suppose every one wishes to go from bangalore to secunderabad how many people get reservations in Ist AC compartment ? ”

“Very few ” , It is very expensive . only those who can afford travel by it. “

” and those who cannot afford Ist AC , what do they do ?” He asked

They go by IInd AC , but that is also very expensive . All cannot afford it.”

“those who are less rich what do they do ? ” He smiled .

” They take IIIrd AC. those who cannot afford it take other less expensive train . those who cannot afford reservations take General bogie , and those who are absolutely poor , take Passenger train   .

Those who are beggars , either go ticketless , if caught are taken to jail and punished , or beg people to give them money to take ticket. ” I thought , I would pre empt the series of questions with my answers.”

His smile was ever so sweet.

” so  , if you look now , there will be very few people in Ist AC of Rajdhani Express , more in IInd AC , and many more in IIrd AC so that you get a feeling it is getting crowded . Now , you look at the other train with many more compartments including Ist AC , IInd AC , IIIrd AC  , and unreserved compartment. Then you look at the Passenger train . it is swarming with people. Yet you can see , more and more people fighting to get into it. ”

“but , It still does not answer my question?” I persisted with Father .

” Those who are rich with godly virtue get reservations in Ist AC in Rajdhani , The age which is called Satyug. Those with less Godly Virtues shall get reservations in the IInd AC  , which is comparable to Treta Yug ,Those who are still less rich in those virtues , get  IIIrd AC  , comparable to Dwapar . The unreserved compartments and Passenger Trains are comparable to  Kalyug .

Now when you look at the trains , you think of souls . Few souls with Godly virtues come in Satyug  , as the godly virtues get poorer , more souls come into Treta  souls , many more in Dwapar , and by Kalyu the earth is being swallowed by swarming people , who have lost their Godly virtues and have become beggars”.

And now , you have the choice , Whether you would be rich enough to get reaservation in Rajdhani Ist AC , or join the swarm of people in passenger train. You have the choice of acquiring Godly virtues and be rich , or continue with Tamsi way of life and be on passenger train.”

I got the message.

“Thank You father !

X

WHY  DID PARTHO DIE……….

My daughter called  up . She sounded disturbed . She stated : Partho expired .

I wanted to tell Father about Partho.

He was young . He was intelligent. He was a dutiful son. He occupied a very senior position in a MNC. His friends loved him .  He was planning to get married.But he died.

I could not stop myself asking the Father :  ” WHY  DID PARTHO DIE……….”

I could feel him smile , but he was sombre.

“Let us split your question .

Partho died . This is a statement that you find difficult to get reconciled

to .Let us move to next statement , more of a question.

DID PARTHO DIE ?

Are you sure of it . someone told you .  is’nt it. They must have seen his body cease to exist . Does he cease to exist?

” You go to your destined  office driving your Red  car. Are you the Red car ? your friends must have associated  you with that particular red car bearing that particular registration number.  If your car engine siezed one day and  fails to rev up ,  and you take another blue  car, with another registration number ,  to drive you to office , would they  say you died? But if the heart in his body arrested and failed to revive , and he moves into another body , you say he died.

Was he the body or he lived in that body to execute his Karma  ? You lived  in a flat in Hyderabad . Were you the flat, or you used the flat to live and carry out your activities related to the job you held. ?  you left the flat and moved to bangalore , live in another flat, changed the job and carry on activities related to that job. Do you call it dying ?

If he left the body he was using for a particular job assigned to him as per his Karmic accounts,   and moved into another body to carry out another job,  would you call it dying ? “

” But Father , when I move to bangalore , I can still be in touch with my friends in hyderabad. He cannot . “

” You had a lot of friends when you were in school . You are not in contact with them for last forty years. Are they dead or  have you died for them?

As you grow old , some of your friends will leave their body. you have not met them since last two years. would they be dead for you since your last meeting. “

” Of course not  , Father  . I have been remembering them , thinking about them . They have been very much alive . “

” Ask any of Partho’s good friend. Can anyone   put his hand on his heart and say – he does not remember Partho, He does not think of Partho . If Partho lives in their heart can he ever die ? He will live as long as his good friends live.

Has he attained immortality or has he died? “

” Now , to the first part of your question : why ? Do you still need an answer?

” No , thank you father! “